Day Five: Six things you wish you'd never done + Omake Today

1. I wish I had never been born as the first child. That fact gives me pressure that I have to be the best and have to be a proper example for my other siblings. And it hurts when I know that I can't, when in the end I am often compared with my little sister, when I have to sacrifice something to prove myself to my parents. And it costs a lot. It even costs my existence. I really want big brother.

2. I wish I had never been the tops at elementary and junior high schools. It gave me this pride and big-headed character of mine. I always got good score without really studying. I was often chosen to join competitions. I was in the student representative council. But everything changed when I was in senior high school. Everything was different. I was nearly the stupidest person in class. I could barely get myself a save position with extra effort of studying. It is a back-fire.

3. I wish I had never been this introvert. Everyone sees me as an extrovert since I am loud. But actually I am not. I don't tell my personal stories with others, not even my parents. I wish I could change. If only I could. Or can I?

4. I wish I had never been so easy to fall in love. Just by having a simple conversation, by having him tapping my shoulder or head, by having a good time with him. It really disappoints me when I realize that it just an admiration.

5. I wish I had never stopped learning ballet. I do love dancing.

6. I wish I had never watched anime too much. It draws my attention, sometimes in such a disturbing way. But I do still watch it anyway -__-


OMAKE

Today is valentine's day! A "yay~"? No.
I spent 6 hours at choromatsu.
5 hours washing oranges in cold water.

Then, practice. Zapin and Saman.
And I am still bete today.